specific him

Well he is very specific about things... N its in his nature... N now if i see ... I love this about him...  Why?  Just because someone like things in a certain way ... It doesn't mean he is not respecting your choices.  Some people are specific... N some people like to try new new things... N its not always b n W...   I love that he wants to see me in certain outfit or give his views about the one m wearing....  If u see he actually cares what i am wearing not like others... Who don't even see what other person wears or weather its looking good or not. 

I know starting Mai Mujhe existing collection ko destroy hote dekh kuch lagega Par on the above note... N understanding i ll do it. 

new rants

A time when u dont ping frnz when u feel bored and exhausted and senseless...

U trust no one to share ..

And probably never will...

Ur parents leave u... And u ... Where are u?

Creating a new life? Why missing past one? Why new life has past memories and a personality to mend, repair and be adjusted as per standards...

U were tierd and frustated there...

Is it not life but u? U r the denominatr? Sometimes i think...i am... I am my worst enemy... Worst frn... And my head is my worst place to live. No one is happy wi4th who i am. I think i ll forget soon who i am... I want to change... More .. I dont want to ruin my new lifd... Then why? Why change is not happeninv? What to do? Where to go?

But apart from this... I feel... A little... Unrelaxed... Sometimes i ask... How everything was my choicse...my way..my independence... My wrong was also right.

I have lost many ppl in life...i dont want to loose more... I am loosing myself too...

My parents dont talk to me for 7 7 days... Whom to complain? Its easy to rant... I want to just pour out sometimes... Just a lil space too.

change

You see how life change ..its not totally bad but..i am trying... But sometimes i feel that i am not doing enough. How life has changed.. And everything is now dependent... Cant even go for a walk by yourself and by our own timings. I used to have my own schedule... Now that is also changed...unable to do many things i used to do...  Why everything starts when my mood is off or m in some pain... Why my talks are calculated? Why the discrimination? You cannot do what u want... Nobody ask now what u want to eat?  Nobody ask u how u feeling? N they say that girls only behave differently... Why he is responsibly do task with mother...but expect me to do everything?  Its really amazing to see things in periods. Rest i miss how i used to go on walk daily... Do yoga, read books.,, travel wherever i like... Had a life ..n almlst independent one... Why nobody ask what i want? Why nobody shares anything with me? Why i have to wakeup at particular time?not him? Why i cant wear what i am comfortable in? Why i cant skip anything? None of them asked ever what u want to eat today? But i have to ask every little step i take... I camt do anythung without permission. Why i have to sacrifice my food choices? Why i cant eat healthy anymore? Whenever asnd however i like? Why i have obligations?